newbuzz...Looking for a job is hard work. Since it is all done online, it can take hours of combing through websites and job boards to find something to apply for. Each site requires a user name and password, so I have a notebook with pages of passwords written down so I can visit the site again. Often, when you find a job to apply for, you are directed to another site that requires another user name and password. Sometimes you find out that a "job" is really an advertisement for a school, or some other service that is for sale. Once you locate an actual job that is interesting, there are some practical questions. "What does it pay?" "Is it too far to drive?" "Do my skills match the posting?" Then, there are many things to attend to with each application; the resume, the cover letter, the email. Finally, it is the waiting that produces the most tension. "Will they call?" "Will I get an interview?" "Will I know what to say?" "What should I wear?" "Will I like them?" "Will they like me?" After five days of this, it is no wonder that I look forward to the weekends. Even though I have not stepped foot in an office, or a workplace, I have been busy nonetheless. I give myself the weekends off. I try not to worry, and to enjoy my "time off" like I did when I was working. And I do. I take the dogs for walks, visit with family and friends,and catch up on my reading. I have noticed over the last five weeks of being home that I am not in such a rush anymore. With no money to spend, I am doing more activities and seeing more people. I appreciate the small things and really enjoy being home. Though this time is difficult financially, I am starting to see it as a blessing too. Now I have the opportunity to reflect on my life without being in constant motion. I feel more tranquil, and I appreciate myself for what I have accomplished to this point. I will get back to working on the job hunt on Monday, but for the rest of the weekend, I am going to enjoy the sunshine.